HELLO!

I WASN'T SURE WHAT MY FIRST POST SHOULD BE ABOUT, SO TO BREAK THE ICE I DECIDED TO SHARE A BIT ABOUT THE PROCESS AND REASON FOR STARTING THIS LITTLE BLOG HERE.

I HAVE BEEN SCARED. FOR THE LAST SIX MONTHS I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO START A BLOG, AND A PODCAST THAT GIRLS LIKE ME COULD RELATE TO. WHILE SITTING AT A COMPUTER ALL DAY ENTERING DATA INTO A SPREADSHEET I WAS COMPLETELY UNDER STIMULATED.  I STARTED TO LISTEN TO PODCAST INSTEAD OF MUSIC WHILE I WORKED AND READ BLOGS ON BREAK AND WHEN I GOT HOME. I SORT OF BECAME OBSESSED WITH IT.

I WAS MISSING MY KIDS AND FEELING LIKE I COULD STEP MY WORKING MOM SKILLS UP SO I STARTED TO SEARCH FOR ONES ABOUT MOMS, WORKING MOMS. I FOUND A FEW I LIKED BUT NOTHING COMPLETELY RESONATED WITH ME. I AM A YOUNG BLACK MOM LIVING IN LOS ANGELES. MOST OF THE MATERIAL OUT THERE WAS AIMED AT OLDER MOMS, WHITE MOMS OR NEW YORK MOMS. AND BELIEVE ME I LOVE EVERY BIT OF WHAT I'VE COME ACROSS. BUT THERE WAS A LITTLE SOMETHING MISSING FOR ME. THE BIGGEST VOID I FELT CAME FROM THE OLDER MOM STUFF. I JUST COULD NOT RELATE. IT MADE ME FEEL A LITTLE INADEQUATE, UNPREPARED. SO I DECIDED I SHOULD JUST START MY OWN. TO TELL MY OWN STORY.  TIME PASSED AND WHILE AT MY DESK I WOULD COME UP WITH REALLY GREAT IDEAS,  HOWEVER AT THE END OF JUNE I WAS LAID OFF. THIS WAS A BLESSING AND A CURSE. I TOLD MYSELF THAT I WOULD  FINALLY START THIS VENTURE INTO THE BLOGOSPHERE THAT I HAD BEEN FANTASIZING ABOUT FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS. BUT REALITY SETTLED IN, ALL OF A SUDDEN I WAS A FULL TIME STAY AT HOME MOM OF 3, AGAIN.  AND MY KIDS WERE ON SUMMER BREAK. NEEDLESS TO SAY I COULDN'T (OR DIDN'T) FIND THE TIME TO START AND THE PROJECT WAS FURTHER DELAYED. THEN I PROMISED MYSELF THAT I WOULD START AS SOON AS THE GIRLS RETURNED TO SCHOOL.

SO HERE I AM TODAY WRITING MY FIRST ENTRY, ABOUT A MONTH LATE.  BUT I'M NO LONGER SCARED, I'M NOW READY. AND I WELCOME YOU  TO MY EMPIRE OF DERT. A PLACE WHERE I WILL SHARE THE FRILLS AND THRILLS AND LACK THEREOF OF A YOUNG L.A. MAMA TRYING TO HAVE IT ALL.